Thursday, May 26, 2005


It's my second to the last week at StingyCo. It's turnover galore, although my colleagues are fast learners and we haven't had to work overtime for that. Actually I've been going home quite early the past few weeks. No need for overtime; especially since you aren't going to get paid doing it. Been bringing work home--it's easier to work in front of the laptop, near the TV, having a nicotine fix. Promise. I wish I could do remote. Sigh.

Anyway, my desk is still a mess; production problems are still coming in; and a lot of people seem to be genuinely sad that I'm leaving. I know I can be easily replaced, but I guess I like to feel that I'm special to some of my officemates at least. And I know they'll be having a hard time continuing my public relations tradition for the IT department (providing birthday cards, gifts and PR emails in and out of the department). Hahahaha. The Small Big Boss actually included that (jokingly!) as one of my turnover tasks.

Turnover is about 70% done. It's quite saddening, actually. I'm sad, nervous, apprehensive, excited and eager all at once.


beware: AI spoilery
Oh, Zane got her wish. She hearts Bo but didn't want him to win. So there. It just proves that Carrie was viewed as more consistent and -dare I say it?- more mainstream. Will I buy Bo's album? Probably. Carrie's? Definitely not. I don't even buy Martina McBride's albums, let alone her little clone-doll. Her voice is good though, unwavering. She really deserved it.

The final winner, though, is American Idol: still the #1 series despite scandals involving contestants Bo and Scott, and more notably, judge Paula Abdul. The show seems to be the only ratings winner for the Fox network and is widely followed even in Asia, where, the show constantly points out, voting does not apply. Hee!

Last Song Syndrome : Perfect Strangers theme song
Sometimes the world looks perfect
Nothin' to rearrange
Sometimes you just
Get a feelin' like you need some kind of change

Saturday, May 21, 2005

hectic weekend

Am getting ready for a teambuilding session at Palms with the new department at IntlConsultingFirm. It was a blessing in disguise (thank you Lord!) that the partner for the intercompany badminton tilt backed out. And then tonight the gehls have a night-out at the baywalk and ovenight at the Grand Boulevard Hotel to take advantage of Helen's free stays. I really hope we don't get a shitty room like last time. After the overnight, tomorrow is Star Wars day with the SO. I wonder when I'm going squeeze in the groceries, IntlConsultingFirm requirements, and other general tasks. Oh well. Things will work out.

by the way
Last weekend we celebrated the new lawyer in the family via thanksgiving dinner. Much fun was had. And thanks to my favorite godmother for continually stroking my ego despite the fact that I've gained 20 pounds since she last saw me.
congratulations, atty

Last Song Syndrome : Sunrise - Norah Jones (my "discreet" ringtone)

Thursday, May 19, 2005

trip to jerusalem

Finally. Got to watch Orli's supposed starmaking vehicle, Kingdom of Heaven. Okay, okay, so there were also Liam, Eddie N and papa Scar. It was Alright. It wasn't spectacular. It wasn't all that bad, either. I agree Orli needs some workshops (naks, parang Evil Empire workshops yan amyslayer) to work on his depth. I found Eva Green annoying, sorry. But the supporting cast of seasoned actors from Liam to Jeremy to Brendan Gleeson and David Thewlis were quite superb. Edward Norton was wonderful. A lesser actor would have made Baldwin a caricature. Lab yu, Eddie.

What I appreciated, though, was the take on religion, tolerance, and fanaticism.

Anyway, a Trip to Jerusalem is actually musical chairs, right? And as the chairs decrease... well, let's just say that it can be termed American Idol. And last night was quite frankly, Bo's night. Sigh. From that great rendition of Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me, to that stunt of singing a capella, and finally to the jumping around for Satisfaction (I don't care what Simon says!)... I hope this guy is going to the finals. Honestly. One of the girls is going. Hee.

Last Song Syndrome : Lonely No More - Rob Thomas

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

bugger this skycable

One lousy thunderstorm. I pay, what, almost ten thousand bucks a year for your cable service, and one lousy thunderstorm knocks it out for 12 hours (and counting)! You should be ashamed of yourselves.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

why did i *know* i was han solo?!

Star Wars Horoscope for Scorpio

You are a powerful character.
You tend to be possessive and lusty - which explains your greedy nature.
You feel threatened when people try to order you around or control you.
You are prone to suspicion and jealousy - but your resilience and passion get you what you want.

Star wars character you are most like: Han Solo

I really knew. When I clicked the button I thought to myself, "Gaah, I'm going to end up Han Solo." And I did. I didn't even like him at first. But I guess I don't really like myself much, either.

Last Song Syndrome : Closer You and I - Gino Padilla?

Monday, May 16, 2005

double takes

Both double takes involved the Myx Daily Top Ten... and the Carter brothers...

Double take #1. Is that Aaron Carter singing to a Britney Spears lookalike in a taxicab? Nope, it's Jesse McCartney. Gaah. Who can tell these kids apart?!

Double take #2. Are those the friggin' BACKSTREET BOYS?! They are alive? It doesn't seem like them, but yes, it's still them. Grown up. A little edgier but... still them.

PS That song Hollaback Girl grows on you huh? I'm seriously considering getting a copy of

PPS Gaah! Just saw the #1 song, Mariah Carey's We Belong Together. She is marrying Eric (bro of Julia) Roberts, but ends up running away with uber-cutie Gage the Fish Boy Wentworth Miller! I knew that guy at the end of the It's Like That video looked damn familiar. Of course only Buffy fans will get the Gage reference; he also appeared as the young Anthony Hopkins in The Human Stain and as a doctor dude in Underworld. Ay, fafah!

Last Song Syndrome : Both Sides Now - Sharon Cuneta


Ger threw over this movie meme. Had a really good chat with him too. Sa uulitin, kiddo, with less depressing topics...

total number of films i own on DVD/video:
Do you count pDVDs? Because if it's only legit stuff then I have... 8. Including contraband: 180+?

the last film i bought:
Legit: The Cutting Edge (! Hee!)
pDVD: Being Julia

the last film i watched:
In the theater: Hitch
On video: LoTR RoTK extended edition
On HBO: Jawbreaker

five films that i watch a lot or mean a lot to me:
Ger isn't the only cheater:
  • LoTR - the pinnacle of my romp through fantasy as a teenager became the most outstanding fantasy movies
  • The Flight of Dragons - sometimes I think I'm the only one who likes this movie
  • The Princess Bride - Wesley and Buttercup and Inigo Montoya, ROUSes and dread pirates and raising the dead... it's a helluvalot of fun! Not to mention Robin Wright was actually still beautiful...
  • Some Kind of Wonderful - "I'd rather be alone for the right reasons"
  • Stand and Deliver/Dead Poets Society - I wanted to become a teacher because of these films but unfortunately that wasn't meant to be...
  • Jerry Maguire - sigh...
  • 10 Things I Hate About You - ok, insipid teen movie at times, but Heath Ledger is very lovable and there are times when you just need brain candy
  • Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels/Snatch - pure fun, thinking fun!
  • Good Will Hunting - Matt and Ben did something right with this movie...
  • and there are a whole lot more, of course...!

    to which 5 people am i passing the baton and why?
  • Rea - my film buddy... ok, so she doesn't have a blog... so scratch that...
  • Oliver - because he does reviews and loves movies more than I do
  • JDJ - he has waaay more videos than I do and I would like to see the interplay of math and movies
  • Jennie - because the videoke queen might have extended her realm to video
  • Sunshine - another moviephile, who needs a break from all the stuff going on in her life
  • And finally, a cheat: pinoyslayer-dom - because I always like to hear what they have to say

    Last Song Syndrome : Get Me - M.Y.M.P.
  • Sunday, May 15, 2005

    everybody's changing

    The ankle is healed, although a little tender. The heart is, well, healing, but still also "tender". There are a lot of issues involved with getting back together with someone you've hurt deeply in the past. It also doesn't help that there are other parties involved, because you were both embarking on new relationships when chance brought the two of you together. Oh well. I guess you really have to work at it to make it work.

    Anyway, there are so many changes happening right now, what with a now-active so-called lovelife, Bespren J's own well-traveled love connection, the transfer to IntlConsultingFirm (since I haven't started there yet, I haven't coined it's "proper" name), feeling bad that I can't volunteer properly for either the PinoySlayers or CharmedPinoy at New Worlds 3, trying to deal with my white hairs, trying to adjust to life without Bespren M just a local phone call away...

    Sabi nga ng Keane:
    So little time
    Try to understand that I'm
    Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
    I try to stay awake and remember my name
    But everybody's changing
    And I don't feel the same

    i'm a buffy girl...
    Filched from martea_scryer and magnifique_f8:

    Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

    Wednesday, May 11, 2005

    writing fini

    Today I will file my resignation from StingyCo. Wish me luck.

    I still have loads of work to do, and tons of work to turnover. Sigh.

    Tuesday, May 10, 2005


    Day 2 of sick leave begins. The ankle is still swollen, although feeling a lot better. Unfortunately, I cannot get more than a few paces without pain shooting up my leg, so the order of the day is working at home with my left foot (whee, Daniel Day-Lewis) elevated on three fluffy pillows.

    The SO spent the day with me yesterday, although half of the time he was asleep (graveyard shift does that). I was wheeled around Makati Med by really thin interns, I wonder if they had a hard time, big girl that I am. The x-ray came back normal, although it was a sprain, no doubt about it. The thing I feel bad about the most is not being able to play badminton tonight, and the inter-company league coming up. At least I am allowed my nicotine fix.

    my geekiness quotient
    Credit where credit's due: Thanks, blogthings!

    Your Geek Profile:

    Internet Geekiness: High

    Movie Geekiness: High

    SciFi Geekiness: High

    Academic Geekiness: Moderate

    Fashion Geekiness: Moderate

    Geekiness in Love: Low

    General Geekiness: Low

    Music Geekiness: Low

    Gamer Geekiness: None

    Last Song Syndrome : Hollaback Girl - Gwen Stefani (B-A-N-A-N-A-S!)

    Monday, May 09, 2005


    Had Mothers' Day dinner at this Chinese place called Skyhigh in Malate. Yummy! Unfortunately on the way home, I failed to notice a little crater in the mosaic-like pavement they had installed in front. My heel shoots perfectly into the little round basin and I am thrown off balance. I fall two steps and land on my gluteus maximus. I know I hit someone along the way, sorry na lang po. I try to block everything out because of the pain (it was like having my breath knocked out of me, I swear) but I heard some bystanders going "ay ang ale nahulog!" and "ano ba nangyari diyan"... Well, curiosity isn't concern, and I don't care what these people are thinking while I'm sitting cross-legged on a Malate pavement. Took both zeester#1 and zeester#2's boyfriends to help me up.

    So there, my ankle is twisted. Last night it was swollen, a little like the 'manas' of a pregnant woman, and a quick call to Doctora Anj yielded a command to "immobilize and ice". Thanks, good doctor. Anj, I feel, is an epitome of the essence of motherhood for our generation... Hee!

    As of this morning, the ankle is not that swollen anymore although it hurts tremendously if I walk, even with a cane. Any movement hurts. I'm taking it to the hospital later this afternoon (take advantage of free hospital care). Meanwhile, my fingers are not affected--therefore, I blog.

    the announcement
    It had to come sooner or later, but officially, beginning last Friday (and unofficially beginning around mid-April), the ex-SO is now the current SO. I know, I've eaten my words. I like words. They taste good. Hee!

    I am happier now than I have ever been in the last two years, with the exception of the post-Employee of the Year glow. Actually I think I'm happier now because I've found that people do grow even if they're apart; and things always seem to work out if they're meant to work out.

    By the way, ex-SO is not Little Boy. Therefore...

    the little boy chronicles
    Are concluded. I think I was chronicling this because I knew that it was superficial and trivial. Meanwhile, the other thing going on in the background was complicated and real, and therefore remained private. Until now, that is.

    Let's write a new chapter with a returning character. A long one. With hopefully this returning character sticking around til the end of the story. That would be nice.

    Friday, May 06, 2005


    on most of the current pop charts, I believe.

    Same Ground
    Kitchie Nadal

    My love
    It’s been a long time since I cried
    And left you out of the blue
    It’s hard
    Leaving you the way
    When I never really wanted to

    Self denial
    Is a game so strange I never really should’ve wanted
    Til there was you
    Cause I have learned that love was beyond
    What a human can imagine
    More it clears
    The more I gotta let you go

    ‘Cause what I don’t understand
    Is why I’m feeling so bad now
    When iI know it was my idea
    I could’ve just denied the truth and lied
    Now why am I the only one standing stranded
    On the same ground

    My love
    It’s been a long time since I cried
    And left you out of the blue
    It’s hard
    Leaving you the way
    When I never really wanted to

    Self denial
    Is a game so strange I never really should’ve wanted
    Til there was you
    Cause I have learned that love
    Is a word just thrown
    A little bit too much of this
    Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
    And never ever have to fade

    Cause what I don’t understand
    Is why I’m feeling so bad now
    When I know it was my idea
    I could’ve just denied the truth and lied
    Now why am I the only one standing stranded
    On the same ground

    If all else fails
    Would you be there to love me?
    When all else fails
    Would you be brave to see right through me?

    N.: perhaps?

    Monday, May 02, 2005

    the pleasurable acquisition of reading material

    The patterns are established after all: when I'm feeling depressed, confused or just totally want to escape, I either smoke, binge, or buy things. I like buying things. Not clothes, or shoes, or any other items of clothing. Or make-up. I like buying books, CDs and (at least before) pDVDs. Well, put together the current confusions with IntlConsultingFirm, the little boy, and ex-SO, with the Powerbooks sale and that book baratillo near Papemelroti in Glorietta 3, I ended up with more than a few new books.

    The book sale near Papemelroti had boxes of hardbound books selling from Ps.29 to Ps.49. If you had the time, physical capability, and the will to go through those boxes, you'd end up with some really good finds. I'm not that into James Michener's sprawling epics anymore, but I saw more than a couple of copies of Alaska, Chesapeake, Poland, The Covenant, and what-have-you, selling for Ps.49 each (and these are the big hardbound copies, mind you). I ws really looking for a copy of Mary Stewart's The Crystal Cave to complement the hardbounds of The Hollow Hills and The Last Enchantment, but the search was in vain. Instead a got a couple of books that were in great condition that they could be given as gifts; a copy of Cause Celeb by Bridget Jones author Helen Fielding (Ps.39); The Glass Lake by Maeve Binchy; The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold; and Tolkien's Unfinished Tales. Six hardbound books for Ps.254 is Not.Bad.At.All.

    But of course that wasn't enough, because there was a sale at Powerbooks. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get there in time to get a copy of Gabriel Garcia Marquez's Collected Stories, but I was able to get the following: The Dragon Quintet (dragon stories by Orson Scott Card, Mercedes Lackey, et al); a compilation of Irish Folktales; Bite, a vampire anthology; The Art of War (been meaning to buy this for a long time); requisite fluff reading in Plum Sykes' Bergdorf Blondes; and a paperback of The Princess Bride (squee!) by William Goldman. That was fun.

    So there. I'm still a bit confused, but I'm feeling better about it. Hee!

    Kevin Smith on Revenge of the Sith
    Great link from Oliver: Kevin Smith geeks out on 'Sith'. Lots of spoilers, so beware. Enjoy.

    Last Song Syndrome : Motorazr commercial theme

    Sunday, May 01, 2005

    terminate me

    At this precise moment, HBO is playing Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines, and Star Movies is showing Terminator 2: Judgment Day. Wow, how fun.

    Happy Anniversary DnA!
    DnA, post-wedding

    Ang fugi naman ni papa Neil!

    the little boy chronicles
    I've ended up calling him "little boy" to his face, sometimes. And then one time he heard me call Mocha (me little doggie) "little girl". Haha.